In our ‘normal’ state, our thinking/grasping of knowledge/information is linear , however when ‘high’ the thinking becomes multi-dimensional. Its like grasping/comprehending multiple concepts all at once. Consciousness too has dimensions, in normal state we posses a linear consciousness. This multiples under ‘high’ state.
Again and again I kept thinking that I would not be able to retain this direct understanding of concepts after I come down to ‘normal’ level. I did not want the return to the ‘normal’ state. It was like I was in a sane/Real state, and once the effects of cannabis wore off I will return to the lower insane/unreal state. This made me feel deeply sad.