During my next ‘session’ I decided to leave the comfort zone of my house and walk on the streets and travel by bus. Following is the description of the various phases of my experiences:
While still inside my home I felt as if my restless ‘mind’ had taken a back seat and I was inside a cocoon of deep calm. I seem to be incapable of any negative emotion like anger or irritation which I normally experience while interacting with one specific member of my family !!
While walking down a familiar street it appeared as if I was walking down a path of virtual reality. My surroundings appeared to take on a feeling of strangeness, …..newness, as if I was experiencing all the sights and sounds – buildings, shops, by lanes etc. for the first time. The familiarity of the surroundings was fleeting and it would soon dissolve into a strange and alien location and then, almost immediately it would remind me of a location I had visited long time in the past. This process appeared endless and would have gone on and on as long as I had the energy to keep walking. The people all seemed normal and ordinary except on two occasions – I saw a man in the distance, wearing a black dress standing in front of a shop and lighting a cigarettes, and the just after that a man wearing a strange outfit. Neither of them seemed to have noticed me, but to me they seemed strangely out of place in that environment. It could just be a coincident….I am not sure…
While travelling in a bus, my mind was calm and thought free, at the same time sharply aware of the chatter and noise of the co-passengers around me. They all seemed like intelligent, mechanical, intelligent animals….living at a very superficial level and I could sense a feeling of revulsion and pity towards them and the majority of humankind….
The significant thing that I observed in this ‘trip’ was the phenomenon of ‘associated memory’ or ‘memory by association’. Sights, sounds and smells would immediately remind me of a similar memory buried deep down in my subconscious. While looking out of the window while travelling in the bus, I could get a ‘feel’ of the locations – houses, corners, entrance to houses and streets, street corners, fields and small enclosures around and inside fields, backyards…..all had a certain ‘atmosphere’ about them which I could feel as if I had a dual consciousness, one of a person and the other of the place/location I was looking at.